urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:clandestinelies masqueraded love. subliminal loss. mr. ryan ross. masqueraded love. subliminal loss. mr. ryan ross. 2006-09-06T23:55:29Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:clandestinelies:1087 2006-09-06T23:55:29Z 2006-09-06T23:55:29Z <font size="1">i write my life in chapters.<br />you write your life in novels.<br /><br />i write my life in broken sentences.<br />you write your life in paragraphs and essays. <br /><br /> I guess we're pretty different.<br /><br /> but don't people say that opposites attract?<br /><br />i'm reading the epilogue of your story.<br />i fade away in the black and white prints of your book. <br /><br />it's.no.longer.me.anymore. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />if i email you a hundred &lt;3's,<br />would you ever love me again? <br />maybeishouldletyougo.<br /><br />but i can't.<br />i'm not as strong as you are.<br />i'mlivingaliveofbrokenlies.<br />i'mdrowninginthedepthsofyoureyes. <br /><br />throw me a lifevest. <br />i'm beginning to suffocate in your gaze. </font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:clandestinelies:815 2006-09-05T18:40:50Z 2006-09-05T18:41:53Z <font size="1">i see you alone.<br />sitting on your bed as i wonder what goes on through your head. <br /><br />who are you thinking about?<br />what are you thinking about?<br /><br />should i have the faintest of hopes that i might be in your thoughts? <br /><br />would you push me away if i sat down next to you?<br />would you push me away if i wrapped my arms around you?<br />would you push me away if i kissed you? <br /><br />i want you back. <br />rumors spread like wild fire and emotions run rampid like released butterflies. <br />confusion.mixes.with.anger.mixes.with.love.and.hate.<br /><br />i love you.<br />do you love me?<br />ishouldn'tgetmyhopesup<br />i know i'm not worth it but i'll be everything you want me to be.<br /><br />a thousand hopes and promises.<br />two hearts.<br />two boys. <br /><br />three words. </font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:clandestinelies:557 2006-09-04T21:25:44Z 2006-09-05T18:29:59Z lying is the most fun a girl can have;;byme. <font size="1">it's times like this i wonder why i continue anymore.<br />jealousy.screams.within.my.heart.<br />breaking a thousand shattered pieces. <br /><br />i'm not supposed to feel this.<br />you're not rightfully mine.<br />you're rightfully hers.<br />i was just a game to pass the time.<br /><br />all the teasing looks to flutter my heart.<br />all the kisses shared<br />all the sweet words traded between our lips. <br />was it all a lie?<br />was.it.all.a.lie?<br /><br />so i'll tell you how i feel whenever you touch her.<br />whenever you're around her. <br />i want to rip myself apart.<br />i want to break myself <br />crack my soul so deep<br />no one can fix me.<br /><br />not even you. </font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:clandestinelies:426 2006-08-29T19:56:02Z 2006-08-29T19:58:07Z my.crooked.heartbeat. <font size="1">i'm.a.broken.toy.<br /><br />haven't you used enough of me? <br />i'malreadytoobroken.<br />these strings are dettached.i'll repeat the phrases you hear so much with empty meaning.<br />iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.<br />i'll be your harlequin doll if you don't throw me away.<br />you've tried to mend the cracks within my porcelain heart but its too late.<br />theseflawsaretoodeep.<br />but i'll still repeat and stutter these words over and over again.<br />iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.<br />please don't forget me in your closet.i'm gathering dust in the corner.i'm falling apart. but I promise you.<br /><br />i still repeat and stutter these words over and over again.<br /><br />iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.<br /><br />Setmedownandwatchmedie.<br />there's no more life behind these cracked glass eyes.<br /><br />forgetmeforever.<br />it'll be easier for both of us.<br /><br /><br /></font>